You know how sometimes right before a huge storm there’s this eerie calm which seems so unnatural because everyone knows what chaos is about to arrive? That’s my life right now. The calm before the baby storm.
We are on the cusp of having our fourth child, which we were told wasn’t going to arrive until November 12th but looks as though could arrive any moment. Of course, this is one of the horrible aspects of pre-birth: Unless you’re having a C-section or have an induction date, you just don’t know when it’s going to happen. Any sign from her is a possible go/no go for launch. Tons of contractions? Flu-like symptoms? Carrying low? You just don’t know. We’ve done the thing with previous kids where we are faked out and end up going to the hospital too early.
This is not my favorite period, the end of the third trimester. Not knowing is quite stressful, because I have to be ready to drop everything at a moment’s notice and head to the hospital for a few days. So everything has to be ready, including backups of who will come watch the other kids, cleaning the house, prepping all of the various baby things we’ll need, and so on.
If there’s any consolation it’s that the fourth time around, we generally know the procedure. I’m already steeling myself for sleepless nights and making bottles of formula and trying to figure out a new routine that incorporates a small human that you cannot reason with.
I want the baby to be here already and yet I don’t. I wouldn’t mind a few more nights or weeks of sleep. There are always more things that can be done to prepare. It’d be great to be able to take the kids trick-or-treating beforehand.
One cool thing is the palpable excitement on behalf of my other children. They can’t wait to meet the next addition to our family and help a bit with him.
I never really envisioned myself as being a father of four, but then again, back 15 years ago I never thought I’d be married at all, so you just kind of roll with life, ask for God’s grace and protection, and find the joy in all things. Even the storm.